6 April 2014
1415 hrs
She is a Saker, your raptor, for I met her once
in a dream.
Shall I
describe her? She is as tall as your arm
is long, elbow to fingertips.
She is a
mottled chestnut with cream highlights; charcoal at the feather-tips.
Under her wings, tail, and on her breast she has mirrored
the negative; cream with chestnut highlights.
Her head and neck are gold and shine like it. Her intelligent eyes are Tiger’s Eye, her
beak the short sharpness of the hawk.
Honey talons, sharp and strong.
She is a
strikingly beautiful creature.
She told me
her name, but as it was in Falcon, I did not catch it.
Her kind
roams the desert, ever the hunter. She
patrols a landscape so familiar- she has known it all her life.
I watched
her watch me, wary. We looked at one
another, two scarred animals, and we realized that we had both seen far too
much in our lives. Too much blood. Too many broken feathers . . . too much flying fur. . .
I mentioned
a Saker before . . . in another story, and wondered why I chose that raptor, of
all things . . . of all beautiful
creatures.
Then you
told me of your raptor, and the <click>
of the lock unlocking in my mind was tactile.
Something
moved within my chest . . . something- uncoiled . . . and I am moved to write you a story, a fable
if you will; a parable from the most reluctant of prophets . . .
Shall we
begin? Splendid!
The Saker and the Cunning Fennec Fox
The Saker lifted from her perch,
riding higher and higher the thermal that rose toward the Sheltering Sky.
Below her
lay the desert, stark and hot. Someone
from other lands, first laying their eyes on this landscape, would think it
barren . . . but there is life here. All one has to do is look for it . . .
recognize it . . .
The Saker
sees it all. Any change in color of the harmattan floor; any change in the
texture of the dune, she will inspect it.
Lizards,
scorpions, spiders . . . the adder trying vainly to bury itself in the sand . .
.
In a
silent, screaming dive she falls onto their backs, crushing their spines in the
strong grip of her razor talons.
Invasive
creatures feel themselves eviscerated and peeled before they realize the only
way to stop her is to die.
One day,
from her perch, she saw something in the distance.
“Oh ho!”
she cheeped, “here comes another interloper.
Better go and see . . .”
Of course
she meant to kill it once she got to it. She was just curious, and liked to put
a name to each beast before it was to die.
He stands no chance . . .
She had barely taken flight when she
recognized her quarry. It was the
Cunning Fennec Fox! They were all over,
these foxes, sniffing around, their stinking hairiness polluting all that they
touched in the beautiful, helpless Sah’ra
. . .
But this
Cunning Fennec Fox was, if possible, even more
stupid. He was approaching without
caution . . . and he was far too close to The Coeur.
The Saker
could not allow this. This would not
do. Not do at all. She will enjoy this kill.
…
Any fennec
fox worth his salt learns early on in life to recognize the shadow of a Saker
as it traverses the harmattan.
This
particular fennec fox, the Cunning Fennec Fox, though not old, was old enough,
having survived this long by keeping still and small as Saker shadows swept
across the erg.
But the Saker
was not fooled. She has seen it
all. Golden eyes focused, chestnut wings
folded back, she dived, excited, at the Cunning Fennec Fox. But . . .
something . . . what?
The fox
knew he had been spotted. “This is it,”
he said aloud. “This is how I die . . .
too close to the Saker and The Coeur in
her charge . . .”
He closed
his eyes and hoped for a quick death he knew was not coming. Sakers could kill quickly, but he was the
Cunning Fennec Fox. Stigmatized. Vilified.
Vulpes non grata.
He was doomed.
At the last
instant, the Saker pulled up from her dive, changing her mind. Sakers have been known to do that . . . Change their minds.
“What are
you doing?” she asked herself . .
. “kill it! Kill it! It is the Cunning Fennec Fox! The worst of the worst!”
She landed
next to him, anyway.
The fennec
opened one eye, then the other. He was
still alive? How was that possible? Or does he not yet realize he is already
dead?
The Saker
was staring at him . . . glaring at him . . . walking around him on her honey talons. The crunching sound they made in the sand
sickened the fox. Will that be how his skull will sound when those beautiful talons punch
through?
The Saker
circled and the fox spun instinctively, keeping his vulnerable back from
her. He was staring into the coldest,
most heartbreakingly beautiful eyes he had ever seen.
“I am going
to kill you,” said the Saker.
The fox
stood to his full height. He was larger
and heavier than the Saker, but she was by far the superior killer.
“I know,”
the fox said, no longer afraid. He had
eaten many raptor eggs over the years; killed many hatchlings. Dying by the beak, by the talons . . . there
would be justice in such a death. He did
not begrudge her this karma.
“I suppose
I have been waiting a long, long time for this . . .” said the fox.
“I . . . I
have to do it . . .” the Saker said, hesitantly. She said the next with a bit more resolve:
“it is what we Sakers, do . . .” then
her inner voice: what is wrong with you? Let him watch you eat his heart!
I know . . . I know . . .
“I know,” said the fox. He was becoming more and more calm. He realized that he wanted her to kill
him. That it was perhaps to still this
pain he carried inside his rib cage. It
did not help that the beautiful Saker had a sweet voice. Her words, no matter the content, were a
lullaby.
But
something . . . something was keeping her from killing this clever Cunning
Fennec Fox. Pounce! Strike!
But she did not.
She eyed the stinky, furry creature
for a moment longer then asked, “What is wrong
with you?”
The fox was confused. Why were they having a conversation? Why was he still alive? Why does she not kill him and put an end to
her tortuous beguiling?
“What do you mean?” he asked.
“Something is wrong with you,” the Saker
said matter-of-factly. “Tell me what it
is.” She eyed the fox with
suspicion. Here it comes, she thought,
the lies . . . get ready for his
brilliant attempt to manipulate you . . .
“Well,” said the fox, “if you must
know, I haven’t been feeling quite myself, lately . . . I think I am sick . . .”
What just happened? Did she seriously
feel a pang of . . . concern? Compassion?
For the Cunning Fennec Fox?
She felt sick, too. She was not feeling quite herself,
either. Whatever the fox had must be contagious. He must die.
The fox spoke again, breaking her reverie.
“Something inside me is
broken. I can’t exactly say where or
why, it just is. Otherwise, I am fine.”
Hmmm.
He plays on my sympathy.
Laughable. Stupid stupid Cunning
Fennec Fox! He does not yet know I have
none . . .
Stupid stupid Fennec Fox . . . he thought. Now she
thinks you seek her sympathy; that you do not yet know she has none. She suspected a ruse and you just handed it
to her on a silver platter. You set
yourself up.
The Saker
continued circling. The fox continued
turning. But it was she alone who chose
the length of the radius.
“You do
know why you must die, do you not?” asked the beautiful raptor. Why are
you having a conversation with the Cunning Fennec Fox? KILL HIM! Kill the Cunning Fennec Fox! Before he tries to trick you once more!
“The Coeur,” he replied. She was
momentarily taken aback at this prompt and correct answer.
“The Coeur,” she agreed. The
Coeur! Think of The Coeur!
“I am!” she snapped.
The fox’s ears perked momentarily
at this. Great . . . he thought to himself.
She talks to herself . . .
The Saker
stopped circling, but continued to stare at the Cunning Fennec Fox warily.
“Get it
done and over with,” said the fox. There!
He said it, and was glad. Glad
that the pain was almost over.
But the Saker
did not hear him. She was listening to
the voice of another. The voice was that
of her mistress, The Coeur.
“Are you
sure?” she asked, not realizing she asked aloud. The fox thought she was asking of his own
demand of his death. He stood, confused,
and stared at the Saker. So lovely, he thought, she has already slain me . . .
The fox is
broken, as the wild stallion is broken. His will is still his will, only now he
allows others to influence it. The
wildness is gone, and for better or worse, this is what is left.
The Saker
finally understood what was wrong with him, this Cunning Fennec Fox. No longer a hunter, no longer hunting Coeur; The Coeur in her charge might actually be safe from this one after all.
The
beautiful Saker and the Cunning Fennec Fox stood mere inches apart, neither
pouncing; neither backing down.
The End?
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